The Heart that refuses to die

My Heart refuses to stop beating amd just let me sleep

My sould has been torm to shreds by her while she shared anotjer mans bed

My fears all at once seem to consume my eyes and my head

Distance is between our eyes like a galaxy from our world

I try to find her and make her smile but I just fail all the while

She says I dont make art from my heart

She used to make me feel smart, but now like I have no heart.

My brain is all a mush, I have no more tush

Im so hurt inside

But instead im made a out to be the crime

The crime another man committed

But im doomed to serve his time

As much as I just want this heart of mine to die

It just keeps beating

Beating all the time

Then why bother

If nothing makes you feek a sense of joy no matter what I do than why must I continue this Masquerade with you?
Why should I keep trying when you try nothing at all
You blame me for all sins and nothing ever seems to let me win. So why then must I continue the sharade? The pain I feel is like a thousand hot bullets pummeld into my chest with the mighty force of a hurricane. 
This pain,
It is transformation
But not what you promissed
You broke your words
Your melted the seal of my soul
To watch it wither on the floor like a fish out of my bowl

My life is a drama with no end
A metaphor for the gods
A forgotten soul